Psalm 37:4

Lord,
Please protect my heart. Help me to remember you have the very best for me. I can trust in you and you've never let me down.

Psalm 37:4: "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." This is my mantra. My heart so desires to be in the very center of your will, God. My hope cannot be in the things I see. I have to daily make it my purpose to put my trust in you.

Although I'm opening up again, I cannot look beyond the present moment. I want to enjoy it yet be cautious and allow you to lead me. Please remove all doubt from my mind and help me to have faith in your promises. If this is not your will for me, please remove this desire from my heart. If it is, help me to be patient in your timing. To you a day is like ten thousand; ten thousand like a day.

Help me to seek your face and not the blessings I long for. If you will it, they will come to pass. Help me to receive your love and not the praises of man. I'm taking small steps forward, relying upon you to direct me and keep my feet steady. No man is the source of my joy. You are. I choose to keep my eyes on you and not on the things I'm believing you for. Change my heart that I may have full rest and peace during my time of waiting.

I Am More Than That.

I am more than what you see on the outside.
More than a pretty smile.
More than a petite-sized frame and small features.
I am more than boisterous laughter with a hearty and occasional snort on the end..

I am more than any label the world can give me:
The youngest.
The only child.
Kind.
Navy girl.
Extroverted.
Fun-loving.
Emotional.
Loud.
Anxious.

I am more than what my past defines me as.
See past that.

See past how you define me. How others define me.
I am more than that.
My Creator has fashioned me with the work of His hands.
He's not made a mistake by allowing me to be broken, crumpled,
and torn.
It pleased him to make His children to show His glory through their shortcomings
and failures. Through my mistakes, He's proved to be loving and forever faithful.

I am HIS.
I am worthy of being loved. Worthy of being pursued. I have value. I am treasured.
Not because of anything I own, or do, or how I look....
but only because the life and Spirit of Jesus lives in me.

Do you see that? I do.

The Umbrella.

A few weeks ago at my church we had a 3-week class on spiritual warfare. Immediately following our first Wednesday night class, my pastor called me up so that he could pray for me. I think he could just sense that I was going through some things and that I needed prayer for strength to continue forward. After several women and my pastor prayed for me, a man I'd never met before came up and said that God had given him a vision and he wanted to share it with me. I asked him yesterday if he minded writing it down because I couldn't remember everything. This is what he (Roger) wrote:



Dear Bridgette,

Here is what the Lord put on my heart for you.



Read: Proverbs 4:11-13 & 2 Thess. 3:3-5

The picture that God showed to me for you is you walking under a large umbrella that hung low; covering what is in front of you so that what is in front of you is not fully seen. Around you is heavy rain from which you are protected because of the umbrella's covering. At the top of the umbrella is a long pointed rod which is attached to the handle. The rod is not the short stubby type but long, narrow, and pointed.

As you begin to walk, with each step that you take, a lightning bolt strikes the tip of the umbrella, building a power beneath you that raises you up. With each step you take, another bolt of lightning strikes the tip of the umbrella and rises you up higher each time.

Over time the umbrella takes a new form and widens out, allowing you to see in front of you. The rains haven't stopped but your disposition and your vision for you has changed. And each time you take another step forward the power of the lightning bolt from above continues to strike; and each time you are lifted.

What I believe the Lord is saying to you through this is that he knows and understands the pain and hurt and disappointment of your heart (as depicted by the rain) but that through it all He is with you and provides coverage for your safety and protection. He promises to protect even what you see ahead by providing you power when you simply take a step of faith in His protection. He doesn't ask for large steps or special steps or even rapid steps; just a step of faith forward and He will provide the power and the strength to rise above the hurt and the pain and the disappointments that have flooded your life.

He will rise you above continually and eventually you will have a greater vision of who you are in Him, such that no matter the circumstance around you, your strength to overcome will be so great that nothing will keep you down; your risen life will show itself true because of your simple faith to trust in God to move forward and in His promise to love you and give you His power through the light of His Spirit as you hold on to His covering of grace and faithfulness towards you.

The Unwinding Cable Car.

This is one of my newest fave songs (by Anberlin). The lyrics are such a wonderful reminder of the grace and love of God; it knows no bounds.

Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves
over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come
about

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home
You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long
Don't you believe that you've been deceived that you're no better than...
The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant (This is the correlation)
Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms)
You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart)
Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark)

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
(Don't drop your arms)
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

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I am a Christian.

Beautiful Christian Sister~ By Maya Angelou

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ

That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say.... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living;

'I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say.... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,

my flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...

I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou;

I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!

Pretty is as pretty does... But beautiful is just plain beautiful!