Psalm 37:4

Lord,
Please protect my heart. Help me to remember you have the very best for me. I can trust in you and you've never let me down.

Psalm 37:4: "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." This is my mantra. My heart so desires to be in the very center of your will, God. My hope cannot be in the things I see. I have to daily make it my purpose to put my trust in you.

Although I'm opening up again, I cannot look beyond the present moment. I want to enjoy it yet be cautious and allow you to lead me. Please remove all doubt from my mind and help me to have faith in your promises. If this is not your will for me, please remove this desire from my heart. If it is, help me to be patient in your timing. To you a day is like ten thousand; ten thousand like a day.

Help me to seek your face and not the blessings I long for. If you will it, they will come to pass. Help me to receive your love and not the praises of man. I'm taking small steps forward, relying upon you to direct me and keep my feet steady. No man is the source of my joy. You are. I choose to keep my eyes on you and not on the things I'm believing you for. Change my heart that I may have full rest and peace during my time of waiting.

Saying it all.

My heart aches with different emotions. Questions. Feelings I can't wholly put into words. Everything about our relationship is wonderful. The things we say, and don't say, at the exact same time; the way you look at me and smile, like we're having a silent conversation that no one else knows of. The sound of your laughter...either when it's with me or at me.

I understand why you're at this point of your life that you're in right now. I was there once too. I found what makes me complete; now I'm patiently waiting to share that with someone who's ready for the same thing. You're one of my best friends. I can always count on you. Our friendship is effortless. It seems to come so easily and naturally. I don't know what God has in store for you or for myself. That's the beauty of faith, I guess...trusting in the unseen. But know that I'm always here for you. I look forward to seeing what happens down the road, and expecting that it'll be far more wonderful than what either of us could ever imagine, no matter what it may look like. It's hard to trust again when you've been hurt. We both understand that and because we're human, it may take time to do so completely. I'm here for you. Even if it's just as a friend, I'm thankful God allowed our paths to cross. I look forward to the trips we have planned, hopefully we'll be able to take them all! Thank you so very much for coming and spending time with me during my birthday weekend. I can't remember the last time I had this much fun turning a year older. :) I'm glad you enjoyed it. Whether it's here or there, I can't wait for our next visit! Until next time, I'll have our inside jokes on replay in my head, so thanks for that. :) Love ya, talk to you soon.

p.s. I already miss you..