Worship by Dancing.

I've always had a heart to sing. I've toyed with the idea of going to Thursday night practices at my church to sing with the Praise & Worship team during Sunday services. For some reason, something continuously kept me from going. I would either be too tired, busy, not feeling well..so it's been over three months now and I have yet to attend one practice. For awhile I thought that maybe I wasn't going to be used by God in the Creative Arts ministry, an area that I desired so badly to be a part of. But, when I was offered an opportunity to be a part of an interpretational dance piece for our Easter services, I eagerly said yes. I've never danced in this venue before. Before I became a Christian, my 'dancing' usually included a midriff top, a bar, and a few shots of Malibu in my system. My mom is coming to visit that weekend also, so to say I'm a little nervous is the greatest understatement of the year. While dancing, I'm worshipping God with my whole being: body, soul, and spirit. Very different for me! I'm praying that my nerves will not get the best of me! I've performed in front of people before (singing, acting, dancing) but not in a manner that gives glory to God while bringing others close to Him in that moment as well. I'm pretty excited about this new area of worship (for me), nervous about picking up the choreography, and humbled...understanding God had not forgotten about my heart's desires. I'm realizing that maybe He's just wanting to take me out of my 'comfort' zone by showing me that it's about Him, not about what I feel I am 'good enough' to be a part of; it's about trusting Him, even with the little things, including my worship. Worshipping in a more 'comfortable' way could cause me to rely on my own talents, instead of God's Spirit at work in me.

It's almost like I've never danced before at all. To me, God will be the most important One there watching.