While I'm in the desert.

Deuteronomy 8:2 (New International Version)


2 Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands.

I came across this verse this morning and it really prompted my heart to think about where I am in my walk with Jesus. I don’t have it all right. I make mistakes. The things I long for sometimes seem so out of my reach. But keeping Jesus in the forefront of my life, regardless if I have plenty or if I’m in want, is what God desires of me. His blessings are not what I live for. I live for Him and His blessings follow. As I wait patiently and prayerfully for a family, to work as a counselor, to live a life full of peace in every circumstance, I will keep His commands and wait on Him alone. My desert is the longing in my heart unfulfilled. But, if God is a good God (and He is), He has promised that He will give me the desires of my heart as I wait on Him (Psalm 37:4).

Psalm 37:4

Lord,
Please protect my heart. Help me to remember you have the very best for me. I can trust in you and you've never let me down.

Psalm 37:4: "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." This is my mantra. My heart so desires to be in the very center of your will, God. My hope cannot be in the things I see. I have to daily make it my purpose to put my trust in you.

Although I'm opening up again, I cannot look beyond the present moment. I want to enjoy it yet be cautious and allow you to lead me. Please remove all doubt from my mind and help me to have faith in your promises. If this is not your will for me, please remove this desire from my heart. If it is, help me to be patient in your timing. To you a day is like ten thousand; ten thousand like a day.

Help me to seek your face and not the blessings I long for. If you will it, they will come to pass. Help me to receive your love and not the praises of man. I'm taking small steps forward, relying upon you to direct me and keep my feet steady. No man is the source of my joy. You are. I choose to keep my eyes on you and not on the things I'm believing you for. Change my heart that I may have full rest and peace during my time of waiting.