30 and alive.

Whew. I've been gone awhile! Much has gone on during the months of April & May so I haven't had the chance to come by and do one of my favorite things: blog. :) I'm learning how to wait, with peace and praise, on God who is the Author and the Finisher of our faith. It's never as easy as it is to say: I'm waiting on God.



But still, here I am, 30, still going to college, no children, no husband...yet I feel more alive than I ever thought I would...all because God is teaching me to be joyful while He works out His best for me. Do I believe I'll be a mother one day? Absolutely. My head can't grasp it, but my heart can. Learning to trust what is unseen takes much practice. It causes unrest at times. I want to see things happen before my eyes. Even when they do, I almost need constant assurance of those things I'm believing for.

I've met someone. He's an encourager, chivalrous, gentle-spirited...everything I could ask for in a friend, and especially in a husband. We're still getting to know one another and aren't a 'couple' (yet?) but I've been praying for years for God to choose my husband for me. It seems as if things have just been falling into place. And, it kind of scares me! He assures me he's determined to protect my heart. He's been trustworthy and even when I have doubts, he's gentle in reassuring me that his intentions are good. I must remember that I can trust my heart to Jesus, and if this man of God is following after the Lord as I've prayed every day for him to, then the relationship is surely in God's hands. He will bless the work of His own hands.

Lord,
As someone whose been hurt and whose trust has been broken time and time again, help me to see the goodness in your plan. Whether it's at this moment or tomorrow, I need an extra measure of grace to look past the pain from yesterday and believe that the very best is yet to come. I'm grateful for life's experiences, let them not be in vain. Thank you for the first 30 years of my life...may the next 30 be filled with even more opportunities to exercise my faith and be filled with joy under any and all circumstances that come my way. I love you.

Proverbs 3:5,6~
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not unto your own understanding, in all of your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make straight all your paths.