My Familiar Face

My mind is full of questions
What does it mean?
Am I returning
To everything I once knew
But lost?
Can't control the longing in
My heart
Or can I?
I had dreamed
And dreamed
And longed
Of this time
Hoping it would come
Now that it has
Do I really know
If this is
The best for me?
Would God lead me
Astray?
Crying for wisdom
A time when
Everything in me
Is saying yes
But the voice
Of my past
Says no
Remember
Remember?
Can I stand it again?
Too much to bear
If history repeats
Itself
I cannot trust
My feelings
I can trust God
But has He spoken
And I've just
Missed it?
Give me
A vision, O Lord
For that Familiar Face
What you have
For us
I love him
Or do I?
Speak to my heart
An angel to give
Direction
Stubborn heart
Dwells within me
Will that keep me
From hearing?
Anxiousness.
His familiar face
I ache to see it
I know
His heart is
Longing too
Lord, not my
Will,
But
Yours be done
If it is he,
Then make it
As clear as
The noonday
Please hurry
Before my heart
Explodes